Thursday, May 31, 2012

Dia dan dia.

Pabila Abah panggil Sayang setiap kali tanya, "Ada apa lagi sayang?" sebelum letak telefon.

Pabila Abah kata dia nak datang ambil lepas habis exam ni.

Pabila Abah berkeras jangan tinggalkan solat-solat sunat, qiyam dan baca al-Qur'an.

Pabila Mama yang tengah sibuk mesyuarat, tetap jawab panggilan telefon.

Pabila Mama cakap "All the best!" banyak kali.

Pabila Mama bagi tahu yang dia bangun jam 4 pagi untuk solat sunat hajat untuk anak dia.

Pabila Angah mesej kat telefon, tanya kenapa tak ucap selamat ulang tahun untuk dia.

Pabila Angah tak marah pun pasal hari lahir dia, tapi siap ucap semoga berjaya untuk Along dia.




Ada hati nak kecewakan mereka? Ni baru tiga orang. Tak masuk lagi Opah, Iwan, Adot dan Ammar Aiman. Tak termasuk jugak pensyarah-pensyarah yang buat soalan-soalan finals yang sangat direct dan straightforward. Oh, ada jugak untuk kawan-kawan yang temankan belajar kat perpustakaan dari pagi sampai petang, sambung pulak lepas Maghrib sampai pukul 10++ malam.


Emotionless.

I wonder if I am still a human. Currently, I'm in the final exam week, but I just feel nothing, to the extent that I don't feel stressful or pressured at all. When some ask, what did I feel about the exams? I would sincerely told them, I just felt nothing. Some might be annoyed by my statement, but hey, I was just being honest.


I tweeted about this a lot. I kept saying how sometimes stress could be beneficial, as a booster to get you focused on your studies. But until just now, when the Basic Genetic Engineering exam was over, I felt just the same. Emotionless. I wasn't happy, sad, stressful, mad, except for being satisfied.


And oh, your sarcastic remarks won't bring me down as you will. You don't want to listen to what I would have to reply, do you?


While others are currently rejoicing over the end of the so-called killer subject, I am now suffering from stomach pains and muscle cramps. So, please, take a good care of your health.





F says :

Negative people should just stop giving out their negative vibes.

Oh, engkau.

Kalau tak suka, cakap saja tak suka supaya tak ada orang menaruh harapan.
Kalau masih sayang, terus-terang saja ada baki kasih untuk dicurahkan.
Kalau niat bersahabat semata-mata, belajarlah hargai nilai mahal persahabatan itu.


Kau hidup bukan seorang diri atas muka bumi ni. Dah pun kalau rasa sunyi sekali pun, Tuhan tidak akan pernah tinggalkan engkau. Iyalah, dah setiap hari, hidung masih menyedut oksigen. Jantung pun berdegup bukan atas kehendak engkau. Maka, nikmat Tuhanmu yang mana ingin engkau dustakan, kawan?


Jangan main-main dengan hati orang. Sekalipun aku tidak akan pernah mempercayai karma, tapi balasan Tuhan sentiasa menanti bukan? Boleh jadi orang-orang terdekat engkau yang bakal dijadikan pengajaran akibat perbuatan engkau, tak gitu? Dan janganlah pula engkau terusan menyimpan dendam, pabila segalanya terjadi, dicetuskan oleh perbuatan engkau. Ya, cubaan positif dengan menyalahkan perbuatan engkau, bukannya diri engkau - Hit the sin, not the sinner, remember?


Tak sedar diri jadi pemangkin orang. Maka, janganlah digula-gulakan si dia itu dengan sesuka taipan jarimu. Hati orang, kau masih nak jadikan bola tampar ke apa. Atau jadi bulu tangkis untuk badminton Olimpik kelak, setelah Malaysia gagal merebut Piala Thomas. Ah, aku sudah merepek!


Nak katakan, hati, jiwa dan perasaan orang, engkau tak bisa tampan sekejap ke gelanggang sini, sekejap ke gelanggang sana. Tak boleh dibuat jadi mainan rali badminton, sayang. Biar ada toleransi, faham?


Ah, asalkan pabila tiba pengakhirannya kelak, tidak engkau salahkan kepada seluruh umat manusia atas kegagalan engkau menguruskan hidup sendiri.











F cakap:

Macam biasa, tuju kepada diri sendiri.

Monday, May 28, 2012

People.

People nowadays forget the right way of asking questions. Or worse, they simply don't ask. They assume.

People make assumptions and judgements; because they observe.

People use observation as a tool to conclude things that happen around them


Too bad, I'm one of those people.








F says :

Stop assuming.
Stop judging.
Oh, maybe you should stop observing, too.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Loving you

Just because I say nothing, that doesn't mean I don't love you. It's just I'm not too good expressing my feeling publicly to you, that's why, I think. So, it would be better for me to keep my mouth shut.




Sometimes, people keep asking me, why do I like you in the very first place?? Which part of you? But I don't have the answers. I love you, just because. That's all. I have no reason to justify why I love you. It's just, the feeling just came, then, all I knew, I was head over heels.




Gah, this is so hard. I'll find someone else to admire, so I wish you to be happy with your The One, while I'll be here,hugging my teddy while crying my heart out.











F says :

Time.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Out of boredom.

1. Bold the statements that ARE true to you.
2. Italicize the statements that you WISH were true.
3. Leave the rest alone.
4. Then, tag 10 people to do the same test.


I’m 170cm tall.
I don’t know what I want at the moment.
I’m not happy.
I hate my friends.
I hate my life.
I hate my grades.
I can drive.
I’m bored of driving.
I have a white handbag.
I love dancing.
I go clubbing every week.
Shopping is bullshit.
I have a tattoo of a star.
I got my navel pierced.
I have friends that take drugs.
90% of my friends smoke.
I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.
I’m studying Fashion.
I have a business running.
I hate cartoons
I hate someone.
I have 10 Lollipops handbags.
I buy CLEO every month.
My parents don’t know about my blog.
I have an iPod.
I don’t have faith in the current “one”.
My school mates know about my blog.
I wanted to be a fashion designer.
I love rock emo bands.
I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.
I’m a rebel.
I don’t believe in love.
High school's filled with drama.
My parents have faith in me.
I’ve bought shoes this month.
A blogger bitched about me before.
I hate sports.
I heart Italian food.
I hate meeting new people.
I hate nail polish.
The mother bear gives me hugs.
People should start appreciating me.
High school was the worst time of my life.
I have red hair.
One Utama is my second home.
I’m a guy.
I’m scared of my Biology exam which I’m going to face tomorrow.
I hate vacations.
We’ll last :)
I believe in long distance relationships.
I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.
I’ve robbed an old lady.
I’m starting to like applying make-up.
I was a tomboy.
At times I think I still am a tomboy.
I love bitching about people behind their backs
I still have a best friend.
I have a cat.

I hate surprise parties.
I hate planning parties.
I’m hot. :) HAHAHAH
I’m a sinner.
I’ve got a DS light.
I have a Wii.
I cant live without music.
Video games are a waste of time.
I miss the father bear.
I love being in love.
I know how to cook.
I have 100% freedom.
Boys are assholes.
I hate Math.
I’m happy with what I have
I love horror films.
I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.
My old friends keep in touch with me.
I don’t read newspapers.
The news is such a waste of time.
Blogging is a waste of time.
I hate animals.
I can’t live without make-up.
I curse like a pirate.
I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
I hate people that are smart.
I love Orange juice.
I can’t drink for nuts.
I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.
I’ve got a new phone ;(
I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.
I love swimming.
I haven’t worked out since March.
I think I’m fat
I love my friends and family

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Sad.

In the library. While sitting at our favourite table...

M : Fikah, I have a bad news for you.

F : Apa? [What?] *while mouthing 'Is he here? Is ** [insert his initials] here?'*

M : *nodding* Yes, he is. He just walked around the shelves at your back.

F: *while tears welling up the eyes* Oh, shizz. Macam dah tak de tempat lain. [Like there's no other place to come] Why here??!!




Saw him somewhere around the black sofas. Pretending not to see. Ran away to the ground floor.


Met again after 2 hours. He walked almost right next to me, facing each other. And I just couldn't meet his eyes. MS was with me, asking why on earth didn't I talk to him. I. JUST.COULDN'T. If I could, I would have talked to him, without worrying the tears that would come streaming on my face.


Not strong enough.









F says : 

I iz so sad. #ohmyenglish

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Wordless Wednesday #6 : Silenced.


도가니 [do-ka-ni]


Gong Yoo.




F says :

Heart-wrenching.
A must-watch Korean movie.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Random.

  • Tak boleh angkat kening sebelah.
  • Tak boleh gulung lidah. :P
  • Suka Twitter daripada Facebook, tapi Facebook mesti login tiap-tiap hari jugak.
  • Perpustakaan itu sangat best, kecuali masa tutup pukul 1-2 petang, dan masa tutup lampu waktu malam tanpa buat pengumuman.
  • Pharell kata, tengok orang ramai balik dari perpustakaan, ibarat macam balik dari kelas prep kat sekolah dulu. 
  • Mira Chowp, cepat pulang ke Kuantan!
  • Oh, dan ye, Zulfa bakal menjadi rumetku. Muahahaha. *gelak jahat kpd kakak rumetnya*
  • ChurpChurp saya dah lebih 2 bulan tak ada duit masuk.
  • Nuffnang saya pun tak boleh nak cash-out jugak lagi.
  • Novel bila nak habis baca ha?
  • Crush dah ada awek, maka jatuh status ex-crush.
  • Dan kawan-kawan saya dok tengah fikir macam mana nak bagi tau saya berita di atas.
  • Jangan bimbang, dah termenangis 3,4 hari lepas birthday dia, maka saya okey.
  • Oh, dan buat si pakcik yang tanya kenapa saya suka crush, eh, ex-crush saya tu, "Perlu ke ada sebab nak suka seseorang tu?"
  • Selamat berpuasa sunat di bulan Rejab, tapi ingat jangan pulak dok ralit share hadis palsu ye, kawan-kawan.
  • Selamat ulang tahun ke-21 buat Angah pada 21. Dia senasib dengan S, one turns 21 on 21st of May, the other one was 22 on 22nd of April. Untunglaaa.
  • Banyak perancangan lepas cuti, tolonglah doakan supaya berjalan lancar.
  • Musim revision week ni, adalah musim untuk bila stres je, rasa nak kahwin.
  • Sesungguhnya, baikla gi tidur daripada dok angan-angan naik pelamin.
  • Berjaya donlod movie Wonderful Radio, dengan subtitles yang super merapu, sebelum Internet ngong.
  • Saya nak donlod Silenced/Crucible tapi tak jumpa. Sob sob sob. Oh Gong Yoo. Eh bukan, sebab itu based on a true story.
  • S mogok taknak apdet blog sempena minggu peperiksaan. Tapi dia cuba untuk apdet pada hari Selasa sahaja.
  • Celcom telan kredit saya sebanyak RM6, selepas saya ON packet data, hanya untuk tengok gambar yang Mama saya MMS. 
  • Maka buah hati terus topup kan lepas dimengadukan, tapi kena komplen esoknya, "Dah ditopup tu, tak reti nak telefon ke, cakap sepatah dua, dah dapat topup?"
  • Buah hati lagi satu, sambil dengan kepelatannya, tanya bila nak balik. :'(
  • Buah hati kata nak jemput datang hujung semester ni dengan naik bas je. Risau takut dia la yang tak larat duduk dalam bas tu lama-lama.








F cakap :

Sekian terima kasih.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Weekly updates. #3

*weekly la sangat kan. berterabur habis*


So yeah, bear with me for another weekly updates. Errr, tho I know it's not so 'weekly'.


1. "Makan-makan".

Yes, I had a gathering, with the members of Parenting Skills and Family Management section, where we had fried meehoon, with all-spiced fried chicken, some curry puffs and doughnuts, all were ordered from Kak Ina. Some friends helped slicing the watermelons, and Pharell together with Zulfa and Shima, made the best iced lime tea that night. YUMMY!


We had our sharing moments with Brother Faisal. I was [and still am] so glad to be a part of his class; he shared lots of things, meaningful ones, things that we have to ponder on life, marriage, finance etc. despite he had to teach 28 girls with 2 boys. :) The one that knows well where to download Korean variety show *coughs* Running Man *coughs*.
Both shots taken by S. :)
Yours truly was too lazy. ;)


2. Associate emcee.

Mira was appointed to be an emcee for a food certification seminar. YEAY for her! Well, who won't love to appoint her after the amazing emceeing skill shown last SICCA Night few weeks ago, no?
Accompanied her while listening to all the forums and talks presented last Wednesday. Gained a lot, where we need some certifications for farms, fish ponds, processed foods, as to avoid doubtful concerns and problems from the consumers.


Every seat was filled after the first row. Urgh, the photo taken did injustice to them. :(

The participants, were the ones that I had my utmost respect on. They stayed in the hall for the whole time, unless they were told to be dismissed for lunch. They responsed very well, and even asked lots of questions during the Q&A session.




3. Library picnic.

Had a date with S that Thursday. Both promised to meet up at 10, but ended up entering the library at 11.30 instead. Reached the Medicine Kuliyyah building at 11++, but we started off by buying some snacks, having the so-called breakfast. So yeah...


The wifi connection was super fast in the library, another distraction to overcome. I might have not brought my Acer, but Baby W had a chance to be the one to substitute Acer's role. Brought finger-sandwiches [spread with Nutella], a handful of salted almonds, some dates and raisins.




4. Youth Festival 2012.

The state organised a festival in Taman Bandar, which was just on the opposite from IIUM entrance. Walked there with Sue, and we even brought the umbrellas together because the sun was still scorching tho it was 5.45 in the evening already. When we reached there, the first thing that caught our eyes, were those tanks. There might be 4 to 5 tanks were displayed, and people were allowed to enter and explore each one of them.







The army was there to promote some job opportunities to people, I guess.





Perpustakaan Bergerak [= the mobile library?] by Pustaka Pahang. The pakcik even made jokes on us, for entering the bus, just for the sake to avoid the hotness outside.




Pusat Sains Negara [National Science Center]. Did not have a chance to try out everything because it was so packed with kids! And excited adults too!




Cats to be sold. They were lazing around, and totally ignoring the crowds that observing them. Oh, there were also sugar gliders, but I forgot to take pictures. -_-'


Sue's bonding time with a pony!

p/s: Tak tau aih awat tangan si tukang amek gambaq dok ketaq sangat.

Walked some more, refused to take any photos anymore because I was so tired and dehydrated from walking around.

Lucky shot. It was so dark, and the person-in-charge happened to light up the balloon.



5. Pretty Woman.

Finished this yesterday morning. Ahh, finally. The feeling after finishing a book.
*logged-in to Goodreads > find the book > tick "Read"*














F says :

The first exam starts on 24th. 
This 24th.
This Thursday.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Saya. Dia. Awak.

Terjumpa sewaktu tengok-tengok kat Notes. Harus terasa. Oops, tapi cantik itu bukan saya. Tapi cukuplah jadi peringatan jugak untuk diri sendiri yang daif lagi hina ini.



Sebaik-baik wanita adalah yang tidak memandang dan dipandang. Jangan kau berasa bangga dengan kecantikanmu sehingga kau dikejar jutaan lelaki. itu bukan kemuliaan bagi mu. Jika kau berasa bangga, kau menyamakan dirimu dengan pepasir di pantai, yang boleh dipijak dan dimiliki sesiapa sahaja. Muliakanlah dirimu dengan taqwq, setanding mutiara Zabarjad yang hanya mampu dimiliki penghuni syurga (Saidatina Aisyah ra)


Maaf, tak tahu sumber asalnya, tak pasti siapa yang pernah letak kat Fesbuk. Dah lama dah ni. Saja buat jadi entri sebab rasa lama tak apdet blog. Kononnya.











F cakap :

Malam dingin. Milo panas. Taip entri.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Serious.

I don't know how much serious we need to be for others to take us seriously. Sometimes, it gets to my nerves so much that I feel like exploding when people take our words for granted. What are we then? Well, only after the product of the effort comes out and shows, then you'd be like "seeing is believing"?


I'm so sick of all these. Stop it before I resort to doing something unexpected. Am I mad? Yes, I am. So mad that I can just fake my smile, while saying it's all okay, while it's not. Oops, sorry, it's not even a fake smile. I forced myself into a smirk.



Enough is enough. Some things have their limits, and oh, I've been at the brink of my patience limit. Hoping I won't be exploding so soon.









F says :

Girl, I love you.
Take care.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Dinner's on me.

It's tonight. 8.00 p.m. 
Thousand Roses Restaurant hall. 
Attire: Casual. 
Theme : Farewell :'(






F says :

May ALLAH bless.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Wordless Wednesday #5 : Shoes.

Not-so-wordless.


Thank you for being there whenever I felt the need to run.

Thank you for completing my simple-styled attire of tee and jeans.

Thank you for accompanying me during those three years.

Thank you for staying with me, though you were just RM19.90 worth, but you meant a lot to me.

You'll be forever missed.






Crossed one thing-to-do-before-I-die of my bucket list.
Source : here.










F says :

Anticipating.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Weekly update. #2

Almost 2 weeks, with no updates, no news, nothing. Unless you've been following my Twitter, you'll know I'm still alive despite no blog updates here. I'll just sum up everything in one blog post, because my laziness would be coming again so soon, so I can't promise when I would update again.


1. Final examination is around the corner.

My first paper will be on 24th, which means the official final exam will start in 2 weeks' time. Am I prepared? Obviously NO.


Oh, please expect a major increase of blog entries during that period of 24th May till 6th June, because that's when inspiration and muse coming out, and would push me to update about anything, including how the ants turn my jug of PLAIN WATER into their swimming pool.



2. SCIENCESS' Ukhuwwah Day.

Layman's term: Family Day. It's the time where you can find your soul-mate if you try a little bit harder. No-lah, it's the time to get to know juniors and seniors, from different courses of Mathematicals, Biotechs and Biomedicals.

Was in the orange team, which was later announced as the overall champion.



Oh, this girl was our mascot. And oh again, she's a friend of mine cum dating partner. She was supposed to be a queen bee. In case you have no idea what she's wearing. :)



3. Lunch.

It's been a while since I last had my lunch in the cafe. Most of the time, I would just buy either nasi lemak or nasi minyak or nasi dagang from the kiosk available in our kuliyyah building. But, I remember promising myself to have a balanced and healthy meal, so I kind of forced myself to go to the cafe this afternoon and had this.



There I had "gulai tempoyak ikan patin", 'gulai kacang panjang' and ultimate favourite, fried tempe with potato wedges. I'm using my own Tupperware plastic container, to avoid paying extra 40 cents for biopack container. -_-'


Oh, I was about to have BLISS yoghurt drink when they're all sold out in the convenient store cum printing center. Only this was left. A blueberry yoghurt. I surprised myself for finishing this since I wasn't an avid fan of yoghurt.


4. Books.

Currently reading two books because this semester I fail to read any novel yet. Plus, I start to read back as to minimise the number of books in my to-read list.

Pretty Woman by Fern Michaels



Extremely Loud, Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer.




5. Construction site.

Right next to my hostel. I've adapted to all kinds of noises from that site. The university decides to build a hospital in the campus, which I have no idea when it would finish. Maybe after I graduate?


The dogs were roaming around the site. Oh they even visited us in the mahallah so frequently.






Enough with the so-called entry. Adios.










F says :

Scary!