Saturday, December 31, 2011

F's 2011 Wrap-ups

Let me warn you in the first place, this entry is going to be super-long one, so you might want to click that X, than reading this. :)

Below, my personal memories of 2011, good and bad, happy and sad, they're all there.The order of the things happened, are very random. I'm not sure which is first, which is next, specifically. :D

1. My 21st birthday celebration had been a blast!! The best ever!! Thanks girlfriends, thanks family!

2. I'd pushed a broken car in the rain. [or was it last year?? Lost track of time already.]

3. I became a frequent visitor to Taj.

4. I entered karaoke room for the first time.

5. I mastered the chorus part of dancing for SNSD's Gee, Genie, Oh!, Hoot.

6. I studied with almost no music at all last semester.

7. Ahh, the five-month holidays.

8. I found my new soulmate - it's the Cadbury's Black Forest chocolate.

9. I can finish Cadbury's Black Forest chocolate within 5 minutes or less.

10. I bumped into my crush after hiding all these while, at the library. :)

11. I still love the sound of the raindrops, the smell that the rain brings.

12. I sleep with two blankets during Kuantan's 'winter'.

13. My best friend lost her beloved mom. :'(
[It felt so unreal that I kept slapping my arm, pinching my cheek..]

14. My weight fluctuates from January until December.

15. I found out that plain water helps a lot.

16. I read LOTS of books this year, compared to last year. Thanks to BookXcess!
[and D for introducing me to BX]

17. My girlfriends who studied in the KL/Selangor areas, came visiting me in Kuantan.

18. I've been to Big Bad Wolf book sale, twice, this year alone.
[and experienced LOTS of things!]

19. I went to IIUM Gombak for the first time after 3 or 4 years.

20. I had depression, the darkest phase of my life. :(

21. I went to a concert with my girlfriends.

22. I started to take supplements once I entered my second year.

23. The used-to-be-my-best-guy-friend got married without inviting me. Fine!

24. When you had a new crush, and he happened to be your classmate, you should just keep your mouth shut, keep your fingers froze [as in, do not blog about it at all!]

25. I'm addicted to Nicholas Sparks' novels. I want MORE!!!

26. I'm using Hada Labo Super Hyaluronic Acid Moisturizing Lotion.

27. I ordered and bought JYJ's In Heaven album, the red one.
[The moment that I received the parcel..ahhh..satisfying!!]

28. I joined the futsal team of my class, and I realised how bad I was.

29. Lost my favourite yellow towel, my beloved item from the 2007 Sports Day.

30. Managed to lose some kgs early this semester, but gained some more after I started join the Maggi-party gang. :D

31. The only thing that I do in Kuantan after registering, is eating out non-stop.

32. I spent money on books and food, and it felt GOOD.

33. My SE phone had malfunctions twice or thrice this year alone.

34. I found how amazing Samsung Galaxy S2 was [and still is!], especially the white one.
[I want one!!]

35. I fainted on the second day of Eid Fitr, in a neighbour's house, and almost fainted in the toilet, here in Kuantan. :( I still couldn't find out what the causes tho.

36. Had a serious cut on my left knee after the futsal tournament.

37. Being suspected of having dengue fever, that I'd been admitted to the temporary ward, twice in a week, for the IV drip.

38. Won the contest to meet BEAST, organized by ONE HD, but couldn't go because of my #37 condition.

39. More K-pop artistes came to Malaysia - Super Junior, JYJ, miss A, U-Kiss [they came like more than twice :D], RaNia, 2PM, 2AM and the list went on.

40. I became more matured, hahahaha.

41. A lot of people took a very good care of me, anywhere, anytime. *hugs*

42. You know, sometimes, your sufferings are nothing to be compared with others. They suffered more than you all the time, but managed to keep that smile on the face, and moving forward like nothing had ever happened.

43. The mango cheesecake in Lila Wadi, is the BEST ever!!

44. Oh, I love Creme Brulee cheesecake in SR, too!!

45. My best best best friend, accidentally blurted out my long-time crush's name in front of my other girlfriends!! :D

46. Distance is merely distance, as long as you're working on your relationship, it means nothing, but only numbers. Thanks, BFFs!!

47. I donated blood this year, making that my 3rd time since 2008. :D

48. I cook and bake lesser than last year's. Talk about this lazy housewife-to-be. :)

49. Managed to restrict myself from eating fast food every week, to only once a month. YEAY!!

50. The number of entries of my blog this year, is not even half of last year's.

F says :

Love and respect. :)


Dahsyat betul. Baru je beberapa minggu lepas, dengan indahnya boleh berjaga tengah malam sehingga ke subuh, boleh stadi, boleh skodeng orang [eh?], boleh online sakan, tanpa rasa penat, tanpa rasa mengantuk. Tapi, sejak masuk minggu-minggu akhir semester yang bersamaan dengan minggu peperiksaan akhir ni, badan lesu, cepat mengantuk. Masuk je jam 12 tengah malam, automatik mata kuyu, mulut kuap tanpa dipinta.

Ahhh..petanda makin tua kah barangkali?? Mentang-mentang dah nak masuk tahun baru, badan pun mintak dinaiktaraf sama agaknya. Minta direhatkan lebih sedikit. Tapi apakan daya, banyak bab tak habis belajar lagi, nota-nota setiap saat memohon simpati agar dibaca. Pada masa yang sama, Encik Acer tidak putus-putus mencuba bermacam-macam cara agar diberi perhatian setiap waktu.

Dugaan betul. Sabarlah hati, rindu akan rumah sekalipun, perjuangan mesti diteruskan sehingga ke dakwat yang terakhir. Tenanglah minda, sesak bagai jalan-jalan raya pada musim perayaan itu sekalipun, khidmat anda masih diperlukan sehingga 15 hari bulan Januari. Kemudian, andai seluruh tubuh badan ingin diangkut ke mana-mana sekalipun, pasti dituruti.

Walau aku cuba semakkan katil dengan macam-macam, supaya nafsu tidur itu berkurang, tapi kalau dah mengantuk sambil katil menyeru untuk beradu, apakan daya...aku hanya insan yang lemah. Barang-barang yang disepahkan atas katil, dikalihkan ke tempat lain, spesifiknya, meja belajar. Ruang diberi jua untuk empunya katil untuk melelapkan mata, merehatkan diri.

F cakap :

Selamat ulang tahun ke-21, wahai Azra.

Friday, December 30, 2011

It's hard.

2011 is ending, soon, in fact, very soon. Feels like I've just celebrated my 21st birthday yesterday, and now, we're entering the new year of 2012, meaning, another year older. Yup, turning 22 very soon.

What have I achieved in 2011? I'll have to say, not much. But, there are so many memories, be it good or bad, to keep in mind. And I wish to share them all here, as to remind myself, 'I've been there, I've done that, I've gone through that etc.'.

I met new people, had the chances to know them. I met true friends, and we went through the ups and downs together,  done the most ridiculous things and travelled here and there. I found the ones who shared the same interests as I did, and could talk about them for hours.

But, there were some things that I wanted to forget. That stupid crush I had, that moments when I thought that I was falling in love while the feelings were totally unreal and fake, those who hurt my friends and many more. Ah, why all of a sudden, I feel like I'm writing an essay...?

Life must go on, as cliche as it sounds, that's the reality. Despite what had/has happened this year of 2011, the world won't stop moving just because we are being emotional, heartbroken, bla bla bla. Hey, I'm saying this from my own experience. Even if I found out Junhyung's dating Hara, it did not mean that I had to stop eating and start a hatred-based-entry against that girl. LOL. My tummy won't just stop bugging me unless I feed it with good meals. Huh?

I've started to blabber things I shouldn't, which means that I have to stop blogging for now. Well, you know, the ideas are coming non-stop whenever I tried [and still trying] to study. Hey, F, it's FINAL EXAMS, okay?? Set your mind straight, and study that notes-lah!!

F says :

16 days more.

Have you done this [/these]?

 From here.

EDITED: The bold ones, are what I've done so far. Thanks Hanis for pointing that out!

I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
I have read a lot of books.  [but not as much as others]
I have been on some sort of varsity team.
I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
I have been to Canada.
I have watched cartoons for hours.
I have tripped UP the stairs.
I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
I have been snowboarding/skiing.
I have played ping pong.
I swam in the ocean.  [swimming in my own way]
I  have been on a whale watch.
I have seen fireworks.
I have seen a shooting star.
I have seen a meteor shower. 
I have fallen for my best friend.
I have almost drowned.
I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
I have listened to one cd over and over and over again. 
I have had stitches.
I have been on the honor roll.
I have had frostbite.
I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects [more than 2, most of the time]
I currently have a job.
I have been ice skating.
I have been rollerblading.
I have fallen flat on my face.
I have tripped over my own two feet.
 I have been in a fist fight.
I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight. 
I have watched the power rangers.
I do/did attend Church regularly.
I have played truth or dare.
I have already had my 16th birthday.
I have already had my 17th birthday.
I’ve lost weight since one year ago.
I’ve called someone stupid. And meant it.
I’ve been in a verbal argument.
I’ve cried in school.
I’ve played basketball on a team.
I’ve played football on a team.
I’ve played soccer on a team.
I’ve done dance on a team.
I’ve played softball on a team.
I’ve played volleyball on a team.
I’ve played tennis on a team.
I’ve been on a track team.
I’ve been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
I’ve bungee jumped.
I’ve climbed a rock wall.
I’ve lost more than £20.
I’ve called myself an idiot.
I’ve called someone else an idiot.
I’ve cried myself to sleep.
I’ve had (or have) pets.
I’ve owned a Spice Girls cd.
I’ve owned a Britney Spears cd.
I’ve owned an NSYNC cd.
I’ve owned a backstreet boys cd.
I’ve mooned someone.
I’ve sworn at someone in authority.
I’ve been in the newspaper.
I’ve been on TV.
I’ve been to Hawaii.
I’ve eaten sushi.
I’ve been on the other side of a waterfall.
I’ve watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
I’ve watched all the Harry Potter movies.
I’ve watched all of the Rocky movies.
I’ve watched the 3 stooges.
I’ve watched “Newlyweds” Nick & Jessica. 
I’ve watched Looney Tunes.
I’ve been stuffed into a locker.
I’ve been called a geek. 
I’ve studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
I’ve not studied at all for a test and aced it. 
I’ve hugged my mom with the past 24 hours.
I’ve hugged my dad within the past 24 hours. 
I've met a celebrity/music artist.
I’ve written poetry.
I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
I’ve been tickled till I’ve cried.
I’ve tickled someone else until they cried.
I’ve had/have siblings. 
I've been to a rock concert. 
I’ve listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
I’ve been in a play. 
I’ve been picked last in gym class.
I’ve been picked first in gym class.
I’ve been picked in that middle-range in gym class. 
I’ve cried in front of my friends. 
I’ve read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
I’ve played Halo 2. 
I’ve freaked out over a sports game. 
I’ve been to Alaska.
I’ve been to China.
I’ve been to Spain.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve had a fight with someone on AIM 
I’ve had a fight with someone face-to-face. 
I’ve had serious converstations on an IM. 
I’ve forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me. 
I’ve been forgiven. 
I’ve screamed at a scary movie.
I’ve cried at a chick flick.
I’ve laughed at a scary movie
I’ve watched a lot of action movies.
I’ve screamed at the top of my lungs. 
I’ve been to a rap concert.
I’ve been in a car accident 
I’ve been homesick.
I’ve thrown up. 
I’ve puked all over someone.
I’ve been horseback riding. 
I’ve spoken my mind in public.
I’ve proved someone wrong.
I’ve been proven wrong by someone. 
I’ve been skateboarding.
I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend. 
I’ve lied to someone to their face.
I’ve told a little white lie.
I’ve taken a day off from school just so I don’t go insane.
I’ve fainted. 
I’ve pushed someone into a pool.
I’ve been pushed into a pool
I’ve lived through a serious hurricane

F says :

I'm having fun!

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Rajin X Malas.

Nota aku ada dua jenis; nota rajin dan nota malas. Bukan bermaksud nota tu rajin atau malas, tapi nota tu melambangkan kerajinan atau kemalasan si tuan empunya nota.

Haa, amek kau!! Categories in objectives of Shari'ah terus.

Nombor 7 terus sebab ni sambungan nota Environmental Ethics, sebab tak cukup ruang kat kertas sebelumnya.

Boleh tengok sendiri, dan bezakan nota yang mana ditulis dengan penuh ketekunan dan kekhusyukan bagai [kononnya la kan]. Oh, gambar bukan diedit buat hitam-putih tau, dah memang guna pen hitam atas kertas putih, itulah jadinya.

Gambar diambil guna Nokia, berkamera 1.3 megapixel sajo. Dah SE kesayangan, dasar tuannya lembab nak gi hantar kedai untuk dibaiki masa balik rumah hari tu. Kalau nak gambar cantik, kena tunggu balik rumah, dapatlah nak paw Samsung ACE Iwan ke, kamera Sony Mama ke. =_='

F cakap :

Ethics petang ni woit!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Final exam and the so-called diet.

1. Woke up this morning, filled myself with a mug of warm Nescafe Mild 3-in-1.

2. While doing some notes, alternated with surfing the Tumblr, grabbled two Red Delicious apples. Blame to my laziness to grab breakfast. Hunger, starvation, famish. Okay, I'm exaggerating.

3. Felt the need to munch something. There you go, a handful of almonds. Munched 2-3 almonds, wrote one sentence, munched 2-3 almonds, wrote another sentence, until all almonds were safely munched.

4. Sleepiness came attacking, okay, let's have a mug of green tea, shall we?

5. Tasted so bitter because I refused to add the honey, took a small box of Sunmaids raisins, OMNOMNOMNOM!

F says :

The first exam will start tomorrow evening, at 3.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Deep rolling.

I know, I am so yesterday, yeah, I don't keep myself updated with new songs, especially English and Malay songs. Well, I am more into K-pop songs, but lately, even if I know what new songs coming out, but I rarely have the chances to listen to them all. Blame to my cheapskate-ness to save the download quota in my broadband.

Ahh, where was I? Oh, it's Adele's Rolling in The Deep that I want to talk about. Well, my bro plays this song like zillion times at home [ yes, I'm currently at home ], with many versions, from the original, to the ones covered by Boyce Avenue and Maddi Jane. I can even sing-a-long to the song without looking up the lyrics.

Version 1 : Rolling in the deep - Adele

Version 2 : Rolling in the deep - Boyce Avenue [acoustic cover]

Version 3 : Rolling in the deep - Maddi Jane [cover]

I just love Boyce Avenue's version, a little bit more than Adele's, well, it's because I just have a thing for acoustic songs. But my brother, though he is like a HUGE FAN of Maddi Jane, he loves Adele's more than anything, mainly because of the drum sounds in the song itself.

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You have my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

F says :


Saturday, December 24, 2011


Name: BLISS Yogurt drink.

All-time favourite flavour : Apple Kiwi

New love : Mixed berries.

F says :


Thursday, December 22, 2011

Taekwondo + shuffle = ??

Major awesome-ness!! Found this video in Pharell's folder, so she showed me. Can't stop myself from 'Ooohh'-ing and 'Aaahhh'-ing throughout the video.

1. Check out the girl in black, with her hair tied into ponytail.

2. The whole scene kinda reminded me to Ong Bak.

F says :

Everyday I'm shuffling, lalalala...

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Fasa itu.

Aku dapat rasa aku mula kembali menghampiri fasa gila itu. Sedih tak dapat nak dihentikan, muram durja sepanjang masa, letih berpanjangan. Ah, sungguh aku penat.

Aku tak kuat, tapi harus pura-pura kuat, sebab dengan cara itu sahajalah, aku dapat yakinkan diri, hati dan minda, bahawa aku masih punya sisa-sisa kekuatan dan ketabahan.

Ya, ada sesuatu berlaku, untuk sesetengah orang, boleh jadi tafsiran mereka, perkara itu sangat kecil, perkara itu sangat besar. Terpulang. Tapi aku perlu masa untuk kembali waras, kembali berfikiran rasional, kembali berhati tenang. Untuk itu, aku dah buat keputusan sendiri.

Oh, harus pancarkan senyuman sepanjang masa, walaupun itu palsu semata-mata. Sekurang-kurangnya, aura positif mampu dipancarkan, dengan harapan, kembali dipantulkan untuk aku kembali optimis. Ah, sukar menjadi seorang F yang terlalu banyak berfikir...

F cakap :

Aku bakal pulang.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Fly away.

I've been listening to this song quite a long time ago, a little later from when the song was released back in 2009. Never had the effort to search for the meaning at all, because the song was [and still IS!] just so beautiful and melodic. Every part of music, every instrument played, every solo sung, every harmonization by the five of them, really complemented the song.

Bolero - Tohoshinki

Oh, mind you, this Japanese song is sung by my favourite Korean boy group ever, TVXQ, known as Tohoshinki in Japan. This one was from their The Secret Code: Tohoshinki in Tokyo Dome Live concert, so it had a bit, not much change from the studio version. where did I put the DVD...

1. Bolero - genre of slow-tempo Latin music and its associated dance and song. [source]

2. If you search the music video version of this song, you'll find one with a girl, dancing to some kind of ballet, but I'm not sure whether it's bolero or not.

3. The wounds in your heart should not just be kept to yourself.

4. It's okay to be yourself.

5. You'll find the time and place to heal yourself.

6. "yume ga tsunoru" = DREAMS do GROW! [my favourite part].

7. Hope is always there.

8. You'll eventually find the answers to the questions you've had in mind, that no one knows.

9. Just dance away, just fly away, fly to the top. You'll come across this part, my another favourite part of the song.

10. There'll always people who would - stand by your side, watch over you, continue to wish the best for you and protect you - no worries, you won't be alone.

11. Spot my Changmin!!

12. Their outfits might be the simplest, but hey, I just love them! White tees and jeans, with checkered shirts wrapped around their waists. #majorturnon

F says :

Take some time to look around you and be grateful.
Things happen for some reasons that we may not know now, but soon.
A simple reminder and motivation for myself.

Paksa diri.

1. Ya. Dipaksa rela apdet blog semata-mata nak bagi makcik sorang tu ada sesuatu nak dibaca.

2. Punyalah dalam hati dan minda dok set nak balik rumah, haa, amekau, sekali Abah telefon, cakap, "Taknak balik ke?? Baliklaa kejap." Maka harus cair hingga takat lebur paling maksima.

3. Kena ambil juga kuiz Bioprocess, chapter 10, sedangkan kawan-kawan taknak. Iyelaaa..takpe laa..sebab markah ai tak cukup makan kan. Hahaha

4. Sejak dua menjak ni, aku perasan bahawa apa yang aku larang, itu jugak yang dorang buat. Contoh, jangan tengok Hindustan malam ni sebab semalam ada orang marathon filem Hindi sakan, tapi dia syok pi layan Mohabbatein dan ending Devdas jugak.

5. Terima kasih dekat makcik kesayangan sebab ajar aku macam mana nak putihkan latar belakang blog.

6. Nak borong MAKANAN banyak-banyak-banyak pabila sampai rumah nanti.

7. Kelas Molecular Genetics, Animal Cell and Tissue Culture, Ethics and Fiqh in Everyday Life, dan Bioprocess, dah selamat habis. Tinggal kelas Plant Cell and Tissue Culture dengan Mendelian Genetics je.

8. Ada 5 lab reports dan satu esaimen kena hantar. Semuanya pasal PTC. Ahh, tak tahu teka sendirilaaa.

9. Kurang sepuluh hari lagi, paper final yang pertama bakal menjengah. Sila cuak.

10. Hari ni, lepas bukak puasa, dan lepas habis kelas Ethics, makan tak henti-henti. Dari waktu buka puasa dengan sekeping roti Butterscotch dan sebungkus nasi goreng ayam kunyit sedap habis dari Kafe Pakcik, lepas kelas sambung dengan kentang goreng, mee goreng mamak, milo ais dan Bliss Passion Fruit Orange.

11. Terdesak memerlukan kasut. Sebab dah koyak tahap sangat meyedihkan. Dahlah yang bahagian koyak rabak habis tu, semuanya kat sebelah kanan. Apa ke kaki kanan aku ni besor sangat keerrrr?

12.Telefon Nokia yang sedang digunakan ni, baterinya tak dapat tahan lebih satu hari. Kadang-kadang ikon bateri tu ada je lagi separuh, tapi tetiba terpadam sendiri. Harulah..

13. Rindu sama Sony Ericsson W508 putih tu. Memang langsung tak nak hidup gamaknya, terus merajuk ke, sayang?

14. Oh, lepas bosan baca Half Life - Roopa Farooki, maka sekarang tengah baca The Silver Compass - Holly Kennedy pulak. Okeylah setakat ni. Sebab takde unsur-unsur yang pelik sangat.

15. Akibat tebiat suka mencampak barang merata-rata, sekarang aku telah kehilangan pendrive oren 4GB tu. Sumpah lupa letak kat mana, tadi nak guna baru kalut dok cari, sekali tak jumpa.

16. Sangat homesick.

17. Semoga berjaya untuk yang nak jawab minitest pagi ni.

18. 3 buku yang dipinjam dari perpustakaan UIA Kuantan ni, dah tamat tempoh pinjam. Kena pulangkan jugak ni, kecuali yang nak guna lagi, renew kan sajooo.

19. Masjid UIA Kuantan telah selamat dirasmikan sebelum solat Zuhur semalam. Alhamdulillah. Sekarang, tiap-tiap masa solat, mesti azan berkumandang, kedengaran di hampir seluruh UIA ni.

20. Nak makan Sisters' Crispy Popiah, nak makan Teriyaki Chicken kat Black Canyon, nak makan mango cheesecake yang berkrim kat Lila Wadi, nak makan Creme Brulee cheesecake kat Secret Recipe, TAPI yang penting nak makan ayam masak merah, air tangan Mama!!

F cakap :

Terima kasih, saya sayang awak!

Sunday, December 18, 2011


Stress causes acne. All over the face. At first, I thought it's because of the Cadbury chocolate that I've been munching these weeks, but I realised, I have yet touched any of my Cadbury[s] this week.

Chocolates reduce stress, cause me to be happy because they initiate the production of the very well-known hormone - endorphin, or simply known as the happy hormone. No acne, no zits.

Stress ---> acne.

Stress ---> me eating a bar of Cadbury Black Forest chocolate ---> stress is reduced ---> happiness overloaded ---> no acne.

Please ignore this girl's crazy ramblings. Thank you.

F says :

Currently, it's the acne attack.
Itchy, dry, rashes, peeling.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Weekly updates, huh?

Ahhh.since when do I have the so-called weekly updates; I myself also have no idea. :D

1. Finished with ALL the presentations. The Ethics one on Halal Non-food Products, was okay. I presented not that well, because I just read from the slides. And for the Leadership and Management presentation this morning, yeah, I rambled. Like a lot. I totally forgot what I had presented, I also forgot what and how I answered the questions, fired by the panelists. Oh, I even looked like a mess, too.

2. I have quite a good view of the new IIUM Kuantan's mosque from my window. Oh picture? Not now.

3. My Sone Ericsson W508, the one known as the flip phone [yeah, I know, I'm so outdated], the screen had turned all-black. Before, it was having the red screen, couldn't read the texts, until it became okay again when Ammar Aiman accidentally crashed it at home. Now, I have to survive with the Nokia phone that I brought from home. Oh, no worries, I will. :D

4. I'm sorry to say this, but I couldn't even reach the middle of Roopa Farooki's Half Life. Errr, maybe it's just me, I got bored pretty easily and quickly these days. Thought of selling it here, in my blog.

5. Now, I HAVE + MUST + SHOULD finish the two Plant Tissue Culture lab reports together with one assignment.

6. Oh, I also have to study for my final exams. Argh, just thinking of the exams gives me goosebumps.

7. When someone intends to change, there would always be obstacle. Yes, I'm talking about you, my dear. Be strong, have faith in ALLAH, and insya-ALLAH I will always give my best support for you.

8. I have a new food-crush. It's the Kuey Teow Kungfu. YUMMY!!

9. I want more Nicholas Sparks' books. Oh and I want Cecelia Ahern's If You Could See Me Now.

10. Finished NS's The Last Song in 3-4 days only. Quite an achievement for me because I normally take more than a week to finish any English novels. But I still love The Lucky One [well, I've just read these two, so I have not much to compare *sigh*]. Oh, and I heard that Zac Efron would be acting as Logan Thibault in the novel-turns-movie adaptation. I was actually imagining someone older than him, but we'll see then. Who knows, he's going to rock the role.

F says :

I would rather take the blame.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Happy birthday!

No wonder I just couldn't stop blogging yesterday. I didn't realize that my blog had turned 4, until I read Sarah's latest entry.

Happy Belated Birthday, dear Cikai. 

Happy Belated Birthday, dear blog. 

Happy Birthday to Xiah Junsu dearest. 

 CREDITS go to these AMAZING, AWESOME tumblr[s]

They may have reblogged that pictures and animated gifs from other Tumblr[s], so credits go also to those Tumblr[s] which I can't recall, which one is which.

F says :

She just knows the right button to click, whenever she talks to me.
And I love that side of hers. :D

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


" I like being happy, staying happy and dreaming to be happy all the time.
Not that I reject the reality that life can be sad too,
but life becomes simpler if I just keep it that way..... :) "

Alhamdulillah, I am blessed with wonderful family, awesome friends, and I thank ALLAH for these precious gifts. They have been supportive most of the time, they have been there whenever I fall, not to help me to stand up, instead for me to get back on my feet by my own.

People doubt if I really have moved on, even I, myself, am doubtful of the so-called-moving-on me. But the time has come for me to let go, well letting go seems so burdening, but at least things that happened, happens and will happen, would always be rewarding in return, it's just the matter of time that they take.

I took almost 3 years to finally be freed form the so-called-crush-feeling, because I met a new person to crush on, whom I was not supposed to. I got rid of the crush feeling towards Encik Satu, yes, because I met a new guy. Meeting new people really helps, but when it comes to a person that you're not supposed to have feelings at, it feels so wrong.

But ALLAH the Most Gracious knows better. I met Encik Satu yesterday, I even talked to him, though I couldn't meet his eyes [blame to his height, :D]. I thought, I still had that 'feeling' until I got into my room, calmed myself down, only then I realized, "Hey, I don't even have a crush on him anymore!!" In fact, I even believed that my feeling was not real at all. It was just a huge major stupid crush that I'd had.

To those who are still in the middle of moving-on process, I believe you'll move on. If not soon, later. Love and appreciate people around you, you'll never know if you'll be separated so suddenly. I've hurt a lot of people - my friends..- yet, they still stay by my side without complaining, whining, saying anything.

The time will come, when you will feel right inside you, you will know that exact feeling. Trust me not, but trust HIM, put your total trust in ALLAH. :D

F says :

I got fined today by the officers. :(


Ada sesuatu terjadi siang tadi. Ya, aku jumpa dia. Tak, jumpa je tak cukup, kami bercakap. Hah, amek kau Farihah, aku dah cerita kat blog aku ni apahal! Hahaha

Dah lama dah..[it's been a while]...tapi pabila kau tahu, bahawasanya beban di pundak kau itu, sudah mula terangkat, lalu dialihkan ke laut [eh, laut?], hati kau tenang. Alhamdulillah, ya ALLAH, jika inilah nikmatnya satu hikmah kepada satu penyeksaan yang aku hadapi selama ini, sesungguhnya aku sangat bersyukur. Engkau Maha Mengetahui segalanya.

Apa yang terjadi, dah cerita dekat kawan-kawan terdekat. Terima kasih, sahabat-sahabat yang melayan rapuan, repekan aku, sebab gembira terlebih hari ni. Siap rasa nak bagitau kat Mama, walaupun Mama manalah tahu cerita awalnya. Hahaha.

Jangan bimbang, aku masih waras. Perasaan yang hadir ini, semata-mata perasaan seorang sahabat. Perasaan yang sama macam akhir tahun 2007 dulu. Dah rasa bebas, dah rasa macam LEGA. :D

F cakap :

Have you ever met someone, and you know at that exact moment, he or she 

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


The busiest semester ever. The semester that I really put so much efforts into it. The only semester that keep me away from stepping into the cinema, yet. The semester in which I go out just to eat.

Nicole, KARA.

Credit : positivekpop

I don't think my effort is enough. Bioprocess mid-term result wasn't as good as I thought, but I was very grateful for that. Reminded me to work harder.

F says :

All of a sudden,  currently craving for Kuey Teow Kungfu.
Ahh, F and her forever-thinking-of-food.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Him. :)

There is this one guy, whenever I listen to his voice, I smile unknowingly. :)

p/s : The animated GIF is not mine. I can't find the original source because when I saw this GIF, I just right-clicked-and-save-as-picture in my folder. :D Credit to the owner. :)

Friday, December 2, 2011

Hati kita tak sama.

Pacai atau nama sedapnya, Firas Adam tetap jadi lelaki idaman aku yang datangnya dari dunia fiksyen itu. Walau hadirnya Adil, yang ciri-cirinya, banyak mendengar dan penyabar tahap giga, tapi hati aku tetap pada Pacai. Tak tahu kenapa. Padahal kalau ikutkan, Adil tu la yang best jadi boipren yang sangat memahami, pandai baca hati perempuan.

Mungkin sebab Pacai pernah merokok, lepas tu dia berhenti merokok kot?

Mungkin sebab Pacai sangat berusaha untuk cari "Dorothy" aka Wardah sampai jumpa??

Mungkin sebab Pacai pernah masuk hospital dan terus mengingatkan aku pada seseorang???

Adil memang baik. Kawan baik yang terbaik. Memang sesuai sangatlah dia digandingkan dengan Teja Aulia yang senang baran, kalut tak menempat dan pelupa. Eh, tiba-tiba rasa macam ciri-ciri si Teja Aulia tu ada je pada aku. Cuma Teja Aulia sangat beruntung sebab punya Adil, yang sanggup tahan dengar bebelan dia, yang sanggup memandu dari Johor ke Terengganu semata-mata Aulia kata rindu, yang sanggup bagi kepala dia berdarah kat dahi sebab kena baling dengan Aulia, hadiah yang Adil bagi.

Tapi tapi tapi kan, aku tetap suka Pacai aka Firas Adam. Nama sedap bukan main, tapi suruh panggil Pacai je. Nasib baik dia tak suruh si Wardah tu panggil dia Pacai jugak. Ish ish ish. Terima kasih sebab panggil Pacai dengan nama sebenar dia. Teringat masa Wardah menangis gila-gila-gila sebab Pacai masuk hospital Aku pun nangis masa orang tu masuk hospital, tapi taklah segila Wardah kot.

Terima kasih Syud sebab tulis novel-novel best ni - Baju Melayu Hijau Serindit dan Untuk Awak Teja Aulia. Sekarang, tengah baca Tentang Dhiya pulak. Baru 1 muka surat je. Nak kena siapkan kertas cadangan projek dulu, baru boleh sambung dengan aman.

F cakap :

Ada buat salah besar.
Kena marah.
Sebab salah tetap salah.
Memang tak dapat sokongan.