Sunday, November 30, 2008

kepada 'a.w.a.k'

this post is dedicated especially to you. k

awak [walaupun bukan tu yg saya panggil kat awak pada masa2 kita kt gerai]..
awak telah pun melanggar hak asasi privasi saya.
awak telah pun mencerobohi kotak pemikiran saya pada setiap saat dan ketika.
awak telah pun melebihi batas dengan mengetuk pintu hati saya.

ya.

awak tak lakukan ia secara langsung. itu saya memang akui. tapi hati ini sangat resah dan gelisah apabila awak ada bersama. kata2 saya jadi tak tentu arah apabila mata awak memandang tepat ke dalam mata saya. agak2nya, itu lah panahannya. saya x ada niat pun nak pandang terus pada awak. tapi keadaan memaksa. saya rasa, itulah yang telah menyebabkan ramai sisters sgt gilakan awak. saya rasa awak sedar sangat tentang itu. cuma awak sengaja nak menafikannya kan?? kat mana2 saya melangkah, berpijak di atas bumi ini, saya akan asyik dan selalu akan dengar tentang awak.
AWAK, awak dan AWAK!!

terima kasih kerana menjadikan hujung minggu saya sungguh bermakna. sebenarnya, hanya semalam. jumaat. oops, silap. kelmarin dulu. [coz hari ni dh ari ahad]. awak baik sangat2. tapi entahla, setiap kata2 awak, setiap perbuatan awak hanya melukakan saya. saya serasa seperti saya sedang dilukai dengan pedang yang paling tajam. YA, secara lahiriahnya, t.i.d.a.k.. tapi saya amat dan sangat tak bisa membenarkan hati saya dirobek lagi. cukupla selama ini saya asyik dikecewakan. dan awak bukanlah orang yg saya mahu untuk ditambah ke dalam senarai 'orang yang melukakan hati' saya.

awak..
tolonglah. saya amat keliru. tolong jangan dekati saya, hanya semata-mata ingin mengenali saya. tolonglah. saya rayu pada awak. awak boleh je x tegur saya. tapi saya perasan [agaknya memang saya persan pom] awak pandang saya dari gerai sebelah. awak tolong diorang time tus. awak macam nak tegur saya. awak hanya menantikan masa, ruang dan kesempatan sahaja. apabila awak tengok saya amat mesra dan kamceng dengan bro L, awak terus tumpang sekaki. awak boleh kata yang saya ni perasan. saya teringat ustaz saya, ustaz ws pernah bagi taw, pompuan mana bisa baca fikiran lelaki. dan begitulah sebaliknya. memang, memang saya x boleh baca fikiran awak langsung.
maka, tolonglah jauhi saya. atau lebih baik, saya yang berundur.

awak..
tau x..saya datang kul 7.15mlm tadi, ingatkan awak ada juga. rupanya, awak penat. penat uruskan iron chef. saya tunggu sampaila pukul 10. tapi awak x muncul. nasib baek la yg laen2 pandai ceriakan suasana. saya kecewa. x pe la. tu tandanya kita x de jodoh.

awak..
saya ingatkan awak pergi goreng nasi malam kelmarin sebab saya. rupanya saya silap. bodohnya saya. awak pergi tolong sj. sj yang baru beritahu saya tadi. pedihnya hati saya. kita x ada apa2 hubungan, tapi kenapa saya rasa lain??

saya memang bodoh kan..??

awak..
ramainya peminat awak..ada yang siap kirim salam lagi. but enough is enough. saya dah x nak taw lagi. saya dah x mahu kisah siapa yang minat awak lagi. hatta berjuta sekali pun, i wouldn't care. because all i want from you now is, GET OFF FROM MY HEAD!!!please, i beg you.[btw, i yahooed you. i found ur facebook.] idiot me..freaking, psychopathic fanatic of yours.

toodles from now. i don't care pun if you read this in the future.

it's the T.R.U.T.H

xoxo
you know i like you..

Thursday, November 27, 2008

cerita haru

oleh sebab itu hari sabtu, aq tlh BURN duit, maka, aq wt sekatan.
NO MORE:
>mcD.
>kFc.
>DD.
>psr mlm.

aq b'azam nk kumpul duit tok beli 1 set of 3 novels, jodi picoult. besh sgt2.
harganye rm 69.90.
maka aq melantik la org2 yg xde sijil, hehe, tok pantau aq. on the nx day, aq pose, alg2 nk ganti pose la kan. aq bajet sari mkn rm5, p bli nasik lemak je, hrga dh naek dr rm1.60 ke rm1.70. so dh save lam 3hengget lebih.

cerita harunya camneh. semalam kol mak aq. ckp la ngah ganti pose. ngah kumpol uang, nk bli novel. mak aq ckp, pesal cr hal susah2?? kua je uang dr banknya. TAK. TIDAK. NOPE. aq nk blaja bli gne uang yg aq kumpul. br ade rase umph. hehe. b'lagak la kunun. besh bangat coz mak aq CARE sgt2. dia jz support je la. besh gak semalam coz byk cite borak ngan mak aq. dh lame kite xborak cmtus kan ma?? along sayang ma. despite..hurm..anything la. [btw, eppy belated burfdaey yg ke 43. aq org 1st wish ok?? last 21st nov la.]

laen cite lak ngan bapak aq. td kol, dy xde. g anta adik2 aq tusen. so jz kol to talk wf ma je. almaklumla, tepon umah dh canggih manggeh. leh wt loud speaker wut. haha. funny lak rase. so, borak jap je ngan mak aq. dy siap pesan lagi, check angah nye kem plkn. [td tepat2 kul 12 check. dh kate w.site kem bukak 27nov. rupe2nye, angah kump. 2. siot tol org yg ltk adek aq kump. 2. she got life too la, people!!]. then, b4 we ended, aq pesan soh bapak aq kol aq balik kt mak aq.

then, lam belas2 minit cm tus, bapak ku kol. cakap, cakap, cakap, t'kuala yg aq ngan kumpol duit nk bli novel. haru mmg haru. bapak aq ckp dy dh msuk uang lam bsn aq tok bli novel. seb bek cool je td. maunye nk t'menanges. aq said NO lar, opkoz. p, bapak aq insisted gak. aq xnk. p kalow dh desperate sgt tus, aq amek la kot. hehe. cayang sama abah.

windu la kat opah.
windu gak sama adek2 aku.

<3>
xoxo

last saturday

kuar ngan aina g mydin kotaraya. naek bas rapidkl. blaja dr krie ari tus la. jalan kat kota raya damn bz. memang menakutkan tuk lintas jalan. kami saling berpaut la antara satu sama lain. jiwang kunun. uwekk :P. first, aku ajak aina breakfast coz aku since masuk sem 2 neh, makan memang xleh nak henti2. g bekpas kat mcD. burn la rm13 aku. gle mahal teh. satu je dh 3hengget lebih. dh la kecik. letak lam cawan polisterin [almaklumlah saje, aku kan environmentalist yg sgt x bertauliah]. then, g masuk mydin. dok maen turun naek je kami neh. asek2 usha harga barang kat situ, kena sergah ngan sum1. muke cm bengang gile. pekerja mydin la, saper lagi. ingat kami neh spies. iyelar, kami SPIES, kan aina kan?? nak sangat taw harga barang korunk. balik dah dekat kul 12 lebih. rushing gak la coz after zohor nk kne g midV lak. hehe. surprise2.

pas zohor, aku tukar baju pakai baju punjabi. baju kurung pagi tadi dh lencun ngan peluh. nanti musyuk. mesti bengang 'dates' kami. aina pakai jubah. offer baju punjabi aku, dia xnak. hah, suke ati lar. aku g amek duit luh. 2gu cikai n noli kat post guard sblh amf. lame gile 2gu. lambat siot bersiap kalahkan mak datin. aiyoh.

then, jalan2 la lenggang2 ke post guard dpn pagar utama tus. aku dari kejauhan sudah kenampakan bas rapidkl u85!! maka, berlari2 lah aku sambil pak guard tu sempat laung 'mane matrik kad?'. aku jaz tunjuk dlm beg. hehe. paham2la pakcik. bas ngah 2gu saye tus. xkan nayo?? sempat la naek bas. dah dapat seats kat belaknag tus. nampak la dak2 laki dr jauh b'lari bagai nk rak, nak naek bas lar. hehe. seb bek sempat.

g midV, 1 kerja lak nak kene cari 'dates'. dahla celcom wat bengom arituh, xleh nk anta mesej. call leh lak. adoiyay. maka, kami mengatur langkah mencari2 mereka itu. dengan rasminya, di entrance 2, carrefour, kami berketemuan la dengan josh n ilie. adus, sunggoh dirindu. dorang terkezut sket2 tgk choy pakai jubah. eleh. cikai kan suke 'surprise' kunun.

sementara, choy n noli pergi menjadi transformers kt toilet. so, yg laen nye, teman josh g cuci pics hp. ade gambar dak2 jepun pagi tus yg b'prog ngan aaj[ambang asuhan jepun]. josh n ilie asek dok kecoh sal 'balak baru' josh yg empunya nama hadhari aka dori. muke kunun cm jepun. p pd aku, bese2 je. hehe. jgn marah ha. pas cuci tus, kua balik kt tempat td. tgh ilie b'seronok cite sal tuuut, maka munculla 'lelaki itu'. hehe. mr S n da gang. aku mmg dh knal mamat ganu tus. nampak gentleman. elok la tus. sesuai sgt tok ilie. pastu, leh lak mengaku mr S tus yg die knal sumer kat situ, despite ilie tny knal aku ke x. sengal tol mamat neh. p nak wat cm ne, org tus dh masyuk. hehe. u noe u luv me, axel.

kami g lepak2 kat mph. kunun minah buku la sume neh. PERASAN!!hehe. coz aq lapar, so xleh nk konsentret dok kt mph, slalunye, leh je aq lepak bace komik2. p perut aq asek2 maen lagu dangdut. xpom lagu nobody-wondergirls tuh. then, trus menuju ke kfc. rmai bangat org. atas sensitiviti aq, maka dptlah kami seats. w.pom cam cukup2 muat je. alaa. tangkap muat je la. yg penting ade seats. aq pom m'order 1 set snack plate, original ok, with pepsi float. burn lagi rm11.30. cukup kenyang. kitorang memang kecoh gile kat situ. but who cares?? mmg tempat tuh dh riuh sgt dh. so, xplik la kan if a bunch of jovial gals neh wt havoc sket kan.

then, ronda2 lagi. cari surau, kne solat asar lu. br leh lepak ngan besh. kami gilir2. a'ah la. org ramai, kang ade la brg yg lesap. pastuh, jln2 lg. cr DD. tapi telah t'jpe ngan dihah. lawa siot. still cam lu. dia br balik dr mane ntah, aq pom xhengat. then, truskan p'carian tok DD. DD tlh m'BURNkan lg poket aq. iced latte mahal. capuccino aq pom kecik2 pom, mahal gle. padan la ngan muke. kunun nk jimat gne kupon. tgk2 lg pokai aq.

part plg xbesh tyme balik. kua kat south kot tuh, igt nk nek taxi je. p aq sekali lagi m'gnekan kepakaran lam sensitiviti neh, tlh nmpk bas rapidkl u85 dr jauh. apasal la aq ngan bas rapidkl neh?? ade jodoh ka?? kami pom rushim2 salam2. peluk2. cium2 pp. then lambai2. sedeyh dow. ntah ble la nk jpe lg...???sampai kolej dh almost maghrib. [pe argh, anak dara, maghrib br balek. ok wut, dr blk tgh mlm. n kami bkn pompuan malang. oops silap. pompuan mlm pom nk balek lewat2 sgt].

tu je lu ek. penat la taip neyh. skang neyh dok bz nk wt blog or more likely a community site 4 farisians.

chaow..

Monday, November 17, 2008

sorry

yesterday, me and aina went out with krie and the other aaj, um students aka our besties, bull n josh. we had our way to mydin and got ourselves at least, two plastic bags of stuffs. then, josh and bull dgn besar hatinya, treated our lunch of the day. at kfc. yummy. spent rm15.20, but well, josh's paying. LOL. got myself a set of snack plate, pepsi float and a colonel burger. i'm a BIG-EATER, okay?!! it seemed so hard to see josh and bull leaving us. we splitted at the bus station of pudu. but, it's okay. we're just near to each other. i thought of visiting her on the next weekend lor.

btw, it's not the thing that i was sorry for. after asar prayer, everyone was so 'kalut' for me. asking when i was going to buy the raya haji ticket. well, i was in a damn-tired mood and i didn't have guts to be mad at anyone. i just nodded and saying 'yes' to everything. people decided for me yesterday. seriously, i was exhausted [penat angkat barang tak habis lagi].

the thing was actually happened last night. as usual, i went to aina's room just to hang around with her. she was busy with decorating her study table. LOL. then, she said that she wanted to told me something. so, i said okay. i knew it's private between us and i said, 'come to my room once you finished your thingie.'

she did come and at that time, i was like sharing my anecdotes with zaty. so i let her, 'lepak' on my katil. it turned out that my conversation with zaty took quite some times.

poor aina. she said she's leaving and she was not in the mood of telling me anymore. it just vanished, that's what she said. i tailed her from the back, pleading her to tell me. and it'd be my honour to listen to her. she just continued with her stuffs [which i thought had finished]. i pretended to sulk, and thinking that she would ready to tell me. but she's not.

this morning, i spent most of my time in my room, doing my own stuffs. then, after zohor prayer, i surfed the net and so focused that i didn't know that there had been some messages in my inbox. about after asar prayer, i got my hp and got 2 sms-es from her.

1st one on 14:10pm.
she asked me whether i had my lunch or not [which i had at 12noon].

2nd one on 15:20pm.
[maybe she thought i was sulking, so that's why she's sending this].
she said sorry about last night. she knew that i was angry and would not mind if i never want to talk to her anymore. but all she wanted was for me to forgive her. she's not so ready to confess on me yet. she'd tell me if i wanted to listen to.

ahaaa.
a misunderstanding. i went to her room and surprised to see her sleeping. so i woke her up and said last night thingie was nothing.

i'm so+very+really300 sorry, my dear. my bad. i've never been a good friend to you eversince. i so+very+really300 didn't mean it to hurt you, deep down to the core. i hurt you right?? i hope i won't have to repeat that anymore. you're always there whenever i need you.

if you're reading this, my dear...

i love you.....muahx300

Sunday, November 16, 2008

nak blog dlm bhsa ibunda leh x?? coz i'm worried that my english sucks everytime i blog in english [there you go, blog in english lg..]. i want to share my feelings.

tadi aku baca blog awin. sedih tho. tajuknye, along sayang papa. itu mengingatkan aku kepada bapa kesayangan aku, en mustafpa aka abah kat rumah nun di kelantan. aku taw, aku selalu je fight ngan my abah over stupid things, but you know what, those things la buat hubungan kami makin rapat. pelik bin ajaib. nak tau x aku fight ngan abah aku tentang apa?

-berebut tv. [sabtu malam ahad, aku suka layan af. tapi bila musim af dah habis, aku layan la plak sehati berdansa. abah aku lak nak tengok bola. piala tm la. piala malaysia la.tapi konklusinya, aku yang selalu menang berdasarkan majoriti. hehe3. maka abah terpaksa la tengok tv kat area belakang. tv tuh xde astro. dan saiznya agak sederhana. tapi aku tau, abah mengalah untuk aku coz aku jarang ada rumah n dye taw yg aku jrg tgk tv kt hostel].

-nasi tambah. [abah xsuke tgk aku mkn siket2 coz dye taw aku slalu kebulur kt hostel smpai ikat perut. so, kalau aku xtambah nasi, akan ada je perkataan2 dr mulutnya itu nak kenakan aku.
<<''aih, along, diet ka?''>>
<<''xtambah nasi sebab segan kat abah ka?''>>
kalau aku tambah nasi pun, leh jadik kecok gak.
<<''byk nye makan malam neh..''>>
dan aku mengenakan dia balik dengan menambahkan nasi dlm pinggan aku dan kemudiannya, separuh akan aku masukkan dlm pinggan abah. lalu aku pun berbisik, ''xpe2. ma xmarah nye.''. coz mama aku jaga abah aku nye makan. coz takut terlebih berat badan. arituh siap kene warning ngan doktor lagi.

dan banyak la lagi benda yang kami sama2 'gaduh'kan.

kalau dia call, mesti dia akan pesan kat aku suruh study, study and study. especially sejak aku dtg cfs. tiap2 kali telepon lak tuh. maybe, sebab aku btol2 jauh ngan family. dulu, dok asrama, at least dekat je. dlm 15 minit je dr umah aku.

satu lagi yang buat aku terharu, tyme aku mle2 masuk faris. lagi haru. mama aku cite, first week aku masuk asrama tuh, almost every night gak, abah aku menangis coz teringatkan anak dara die neh. [ini adalah pengakuan berani mati. men do cry, and that proves they are real humans]. aku bangga sgt2. coz aku taw abah memang sayang aku.








dan abah masih sayang aku.
dan aku tetap sayang abah.

and that is the FACT.
take it or leave it!!

ouch..!!

i was supposed to study my english after finishing my physics thingie. but instead, after switching ON my lappy, i continued to surf the net after copying some stuffs regarding the english thingie. i read blogs, i viewed my fs profile. and later on, i'll be officially opened this blog to the public after all this while. however, it still needs me to some upgrades and updates. so, just wait and see. as some of you know, i'm not so good with techno things. but i'll try.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

special ept

NUR AFIQAH BT MUSTAFPA (PMACY/082648)
MAHALLAH ZC / 011B
CFS,IIUM

Assalamu'alaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

SPECIAL EPT

Congratulations! you have paseeb LEM5012 with grade A-.
As such, you will be sitting for the special EPT on the following dates:

Day/Date : Tuesday / 18th November 2008
Time : 9.00 am
Venue : SM001 - SM004, Petaling Jaya Campus
Skills : Reading, Writing & Grammar

Failing to attend the EPT as stipulated means that you are not interested and no other chance will be given. You will continue to the next level, LEM6012.

Any enquiries, please call the Department of Languages at 03-778034xx / 03-778034xx.

Thank you, wassalam.



Deputy Dean of Languages
CFS, IIUM



how i wished i could share this happy moment with them. but my bad pointer, spoiled everything. my bad.

so, i'll struggle for this. i won't let this chance slip away from my hands. if i managed to get at least 75 and above aka A-, i'll proceed to the listening and speaking sessions, where i will be analysed there. and that will decide whether i manage to get myself exempted and do the eap[english for academic purpose]. something to do with thesis papers. it's HARD, i know and am aware of that. but i'll try my BEST. i just have HIM with me. my faith..

tonight

music: music of my heart ~gloria estefan + nsync~

i couldn't figure why tonight, i felt like to puke all the burdens from my heart. i finally realised that through blogging, i could at least let myself free out of those stress [and stress is good, that's what j said].

i'm tired of being a puppet. people love controlling me, even they never admit that. and they won't. never and ever. i rather lead myself astray, than to be dragged here and there. i have my own principle, people!! i just need your ass get out of my way. every step i've taken, i know well the risks that i'm taken with, too. let me fall, so that i can finally stand up by myself. i'm saying this not because i don't need anyone next to me. it's just that, sometimes i really need the air. the space. the privacy.

i admit that, i've been such a stone-headed kind of girl all this while. but how can't you see?? can't you see that it means something.

it really does.
[owh..how i wished you, those people, can have a look at this].

my final results of sem 1

music: yang pernah ~estranged~

i thought i'd made myself clear on that. but i didn't know why. thinking of it once again almost made my cry just few minutes ago.

it was devastating.
it was frustrating.
it was killing..

ME!!

that brought me back when i was in my primary school. i was always to be compared when i got any of my examination results. they thought that life would never be perfect unless they compared me with other bunch of kiddos. hated that. i remembered every single thing that they compared me. and i didn't want to repeat that dark phase of my life.

people there could never wonder how i was struggling during my finals. my mistake was..to have a last-minute revision. that was something i would never deny.

and i'm here, trying to be a better person..
[with some 'badder' attitudes]..

notice2

music:i could not ask for more ~edwin mccain~

attention!!attention!![though i frigging know that no one's reading this]

i'm in the process of moving some of my previous blogs from my second blog. since that blog is more to my religious faith, so i don't want it to be bothered by any of my personal life. so, all the details of my life are here. hope so.

and friendster SUCKS!!

how can my friends left to 14?? s**t..

Sunday, November 9, 2008

080808 ~me??angry??~

You Are 48% Angry[Photo]Generally, you are not an angry person.But you're easily frustrated and enraged. You have one heck of a temper.And because of your anger, you tend to feel resentful and even spiteful.You already know how to quell your anger. You just need to do it more often.How Angry Are You?

080808 ~messy me~

You Are a Little Messy

[Photo]

You aren't the cleanest person in the world, but you're definitely not a slob.

You clean up when you have the time, but you're realistic about what you can get done.

Generally, you're pretty organized and tidy - though you may have a few hidden messes.

You eventually get around to making things spotless, but you do it on your own schedule!

Are You Messy?

070808 ~urgh!~

huh..i just didn't know how it happened. i was just playing around, editing my photo [my favourite one] which i ended up by saving it. i searched for the original, and guess what, there's NO MORE!! i hate myself for being so careless.

now, i can figure that

how foolish.stupid.idiot i am

[hate that combination of those three words]

better to watch your step next time, fikah.

p/s: how i wish i have a pair of much creative and techno hands.

*mood keeps swinging. abc today. maybe that's why.

080808 ~sad~

salaam..when i woke up this morning, sad things suddenly flashed back into my mind. i didn't know why. all that i remembered was i used to collect erasers and stickers [a child's thingie]. the last time i saw them was the days before i departed for my boarding school, for about five years ago. they did have sentimental values for me. few years back, when i was scavenging around, looking for them, all i knew, they were all gone. i was told that they were sold. maybe trashed into some bins around my house. i was devastated. all my beloved things, that i wished i would have something to ponder when i grew up, were all gone. i took quite some time to recover myself back to normal.to be frank, i hate remembering those stuffs. i don't want my heart to be burdened with these avenge, revenge and vengeance things. it will be heavier as i go through my life. i have lots more [special moments, sweet-bitter memories] to perish.and now, i'm T.I.R.E.D!!

070808 ~.blog.blogs.blogger.bloggers.~

salaam..never thought that the blog has been widening its influence to lots of people, including my close friends. i browsed myspace just now, found a blog from mr vernon. the one, who is famous for bringing up ning baizura to her level. well, i do enjoy music for some of my times, but reading his blog just now, was quite amusing. gave me the so-called muse and inspiration to blog in english, in such a better and proper way.

his english is so damn good [excellent, actually] just like my other friends [let's not name them here, worried if my judgement is not that fair. you judge by yourself ok?]thanks to the blog creator, for at least i know what's going on in my friends' lives.to those who do not set a blog page yet, go get one!!!

070808 ~exam.EXAM.exam~

salaam.i'll be going through a maths 1 exam by this monday, and still i'm still fooling myself around.

can't stop eating.
addicted to tv.
rolling on the bed.
online games.
!!WARNING!!!!

wARNING!!!!warNING!!!!warnING!!!!warniNG!!!!warninG!!!!warning!!!!Warning!!!!WArning!!!!WARning!!!!WARNing!!!!WARNIng!!!!WARNINg!!!!WARNING!!

060808 ~flu attacks~

salaam..it's been a while since my last post. sorry for not keeping promise to myself, that i'll keep updating my blog as soon as i reach home, but i've been postponing it. i did view my blog everyday, it's just that i didn't feel like to type down everything for the time being.flu. yeah flu did attack me today. felt like getting fever. it's alright. there's a good sign beneath it. read my inbox just now. got an email from mr harith. there's a conference [ some sort of that], discussing global issues. i'm quite intrigued, but hesitated to go or not. it'll be held on 19th of august,2 to 3 days in penang, which means, there are classes to miss. it's a collaboration with usm penang. i'll decide later, ok??

300708 ~today is wednesday, so..~

salam'alayk..today is wednesday, so here in cfs, it is compulsory for all female students to wear white scarfs, and the guys have to wear necktie.today, too, is a very special day. Isra' and Mi'raj. but can't tell you much since i have no time yet to collect and compile all the facts regarding this day. Muslims are encouraged to fast today, so many of us do fast. [what's wrong with my language?? very lazy one. bored you to death. LOL]i'll catch up with this topic later, when i'm truly homed.today's highlights..morning sessionbiology 1 class, 1 hour - start with chapter 4, which madam azlina was so sure that she'll finish that chapter on cell cycle by this friday. the chapter is supposed to have 5 hours of teachings, but she'll make it into 3. LOL. it's because the content is not that much as chapter 2. btw, her due will be in the first week of Ramadhan. can't wait to see her baby. huhu..mathematics 1 class, 2 hours - continued with chapter 3. learnt about multiplicity of graph [i guess that's the title of the subtopic]. quite fun since i'd started to love figures and symbols again after quite a long time ago.evening sessionarabic language, 2 hours - we had finished until chapter 13 [13 chapter for our mid-sem exam] yesterday. and finished the muraja'ah part also. so, just now, we discussed on the past sem paper. no essay [alhamdulillah]. managed to get 34/40. *happy* seriously talking, this sem arabic language is much,much easier than my arabic lesson when i was in form 1. so i MUST and MUST and MUST score this paper on 16th of August, 2008.english language level 5, writing, 2 hours - homework, units 13 and 14 in focus on grammar exercise book. learnt modals, passive verbs. then, had peer-editing essay, which every person will get one essay that we'd written yesterday on "The Effects of Oil Price Hike in Malaysia", he or she must mark any mistake that had been done by the writers [us-lah], and give comments in the forms provided. passed to madam norhayati and you can go back. finished even before 5.

280708 ~life is truly complicated..but..~

salam'alayk..feeling like to blog more when i'm still free. who knows, that i may get busy in the next semester. yeah, with physics, biology and chemistry to cover, i'm sure there'll be no more time like this.i have a friend. a good friend. she loved to listen to others' problems and would be pleased to solve all of them, despite of hers is not that less. she is offered to do biotechnology in canada by two years' time. so, right now, she has a-level to immerse her brain in, in a private college.unfortunately, as i listened to her stories few days ago, the environment was not that encouraging. her college has quite a stiff competition and she worried that she couldn't cope in the future. that's one thing. another thing, the place is so much sociable. for me, it's not weird as we now stay in a place that called metropolice. social problems can be anywhere, even in our hometown, except that here, can be worse. she's surrounded by unhealthy and immoral environment, which she worried that she could never survive.that's LIFE..complicated..unpredictable..but as long as we have our faith on Him, always and forever, by His willing, we'll never get lost. stay strong to His deen, His Book al-karim and all the Prophet's sayings. we'll be immuned to any source of bad things.dear my friend [if you're reading this],may you always be in His blessings..be strong as He is testing us..love you always..

280708 ~free time~

salam'alayk..supposed to have our listening and speaking english class by 2.15 p.m., but as i reached my class, i could see shake and kim 'hanged out' outside the class. asked them why, they said there's no electricity inside, so how could it be possible to stay in the class with the other. i was just oohed. thought that we're going to switch to other venue, but they told me that madam sally was not going to come. that info came from arif, a sarawakian guy aka a debater aka our class represantative. but..but,but,but..we had a task. that madam sally asked us to finish our wery last draft of our scripts, to hand in by this wednesday night, where we would have a replacement class in the library. plus, our lecturer would present her work to us, which we could call it a mock presentation. so, this wednesday night, 9 to 10.30 p.m. in the library.by the way, got an sms just now. i was chosen to be in the economy bureau of G'RIMIS. so, we'll have a meeting tonight in AX202, at 9.15 p.m.. lucky enough that i have no other commitment tonight. and no homework,too. finished them already.till then...

270708 ~english level 5 presentation~

salam'alayk.. by the way, the speaking presentation will only be held after our mid-semester break. thanks to Allah. at least we have some more time to prepare ourselves, physically, mentall and emotionally. yeah, presenting in front of a bunch of people [even you do know them, can be a little bit scary. plus, you have to overcome your fear and nervousness, or else you lose your marks. LOL. we all also need to maintain our eye contact with the audiences. that, i bet, is not that easy. before i forgot, sabrina, one of my classmate for biology 1, mathematics 1 and english, left us on the last tuesday. she got the felda scholarship, which offered her biotechnology to overseas. where? i don't know. the administrators will decide after she finishes her international baccalaurette [don't know whether i spell it right or not] aka IB. she'll do the IB thingy in banting mara college. she said that she was supposed to leave by friday, but, all of a sudden, the people who in-charge of all these things, called her, in the tuesday morning. i waited for her as usual for our english class [writing], and then, she came down and said that she's leaving. sob..sob.. . she had to skip classes or else, she had no time to pack her things. she was rushing that she left some of her belongings in her room. well, friends may come..they may go, too. Allah has set the fate we have to separate this time. i can't do anything, except to let her go. there's must be something hidden behind all these. that's all.. need to finish my speaking outline and script. got to send them by tomorrow to madam sally. sweet madam sally. i'll tell about her later. i don't want to risk myself sleeping late again, eventhough my class will only start at 11 tomorrow. daa~ for now..

250708 ~bad-worse-worst~

salaam.. what can be worse other than doing badly in the quizzes?? i don't know why, but i seemed panicking when i answered the maths one. maybe it was due to schedule change that we had to do the quiz earlier, so maybe, i was kinda shocked. it went almost the same for biology this morning. panicking that i found no questions on water at all. more to nucleic acids, carbohydrates etc.. i did read [not revise..so bad la] the topics. but i didn't know why, i forgot what i had read. i did left some stucture questions. what a waste! well..i'll try again for another part of the quiz [since the quiz has 2 parts]. the topic will cover on enzyme, enzyme technology and technology of analysis. wish me the best.. may Allah will always by my side..

220708 ~quizzes~

salam'alayk.. this thursday i have my first maths 1 quiz..hoho..quite scary lor..when my lecturer was teaching us the first chapter, i'm kinda blurred since my brain still in the process of warming up. doing all the exercises in that thick,heavy textbook, yet, i'm still nervous and worried if i'll answer them wrong or i maybe careless or i can be panicked at that time and start to forget everything i've learned. argghh!! there's so much to think. well, i'll let the worries dismiss from my mind by leaving all of them to Allah the Almighty. He knows better.. and the next day, i'll be having the biology 1 quiz, part 1, which covers until the subtopic of nucleic acids. another part will be enzyme and all the analysis techniques. woohoo..!! ticket had been bought last week from the PERDANA aka persatuan anak2 darul naim. not lucky enough to get the ticket to return to cfs back. so i had asked my abah already to get two for me and nabb, on 9th of august night. maybe by mutiara or transnasional. either one. can't wait to get home as i miss everyone there like crazy. thanks to Allah S.W.T. for giving me so much strengths to continue my journey here, in cfs, far away from my beloved ones. my english is too much plain, but i'll keep it up as soon as possible. plus, in my level 5, we have to write so much formal essay, cause-and-effect essay. i'll try my best. hate to disappoint them, myself too. may Allah bless me all the way through..

210708 ~clubs and societies~

peace to be upon you.. here in cfs, iium, pj, as i've been told, participation in clubs and societies is not compulsory. nevertheless, we're not limited to join only a club or society. you can join as many as you're interested in. anyhow, it is copulsory to all students to join the academic-based societies. i'm in MEDCY[medical sciences students' society], which consists of pre-medical, pharmacy, dentistry, allied health science and nursing students. there are lots of activities, yet to be discovered, such as zenith of khalifah, last semesters exam questions sale, career and motivatonal talks, and the list goes on. well, here, some infos on the clubs i've joined so far..

ENVIRONMENTAL CLUB *chuckle* i've been imagining myself being an environment activist or environmentalist in cfs. actually, i was inspired so much of preseving our Earth after watching a documentary by Al Gore, 'An Inconvenient Truth'. truly, the truth is much,much more inconvenient. our Earth was sick, is sick and will continue to be sick if we're just standing wherever we are. come on guys!! let's help our mother nature. she needs us, who else would, if not us???!! in the agm aka annual general meeting, i stood up to suggest that we go camping, bird-watching, night walking, cave exploring and so on in gua batu maloi, kuala pilah, negeri sembilan. also, i proposed that our club should have the 'observation squad' or 'skuad pemantau' like uum, to keep an eye to the cafes' owners, to ban the polystherine. well, i didn't know whether my words were being heard or not. since i filled in the form by choosing the publisity and promotion bureau, and i got that, we're required to decorate and make full use of the advertisement board. i was given, nope i volunteered to find the required information and current issues to fill the board. three ideas, that were, global warming [narrow down to deforestation], disadvantages of plastics and polystherines, and smoke. ok. enough about being green, for a while.

ENGLISH LANGUAGE CLUB i put red, because this club is so much full of spirits [not that unidentitfied spirits ok??!!] and colours. this club is more to having fun while we're doing the activities. we have exuberant seniors of second year students to give this club more highlights. the agm was conducted by throwing a party. a party-like agm. thumb's up to the committees! we had the multimedia presentation, watched the videos prepared by a sabahan brother, lucky draw [macam2 aznil's style], poisoned balloons and first-year committees' nominations. hope to enjoy the club as much as the seniors did. but not THAT part. amiirah knows what i mean.

G'RIMIS aka GRUP IMPRESI SENI this society searches for the members, who are interested in stage performances and decorations, khat writings, percussion, nasyid, tilawah and hafazan al-quran, and there go the lists. the agm was held in al-malik faisal hall, at night, 8.15 p.m.. we had speeches from the president and also the ex-president, who was also there to show his support, our new advisor, madam rosmiza. watched the nasyid performance from the new generations of IQ-NID, having their seniors on the floor, judging, maybe. the climax of the night was to listen to the manifestos, presented by the first-year commitee nominees, for the posts of secretary and assistant, and treasurer and assistant. there's a speech from a sister nominee, which was so full of 'ayat2 berbunga' [since she's a BM public speaker in her former school], and guess what, you're right, she won the post for secretary assistant. congratulations to all the first-year nominees that had won. those, who were lost, it's alright, you could still contribute to our society.

there are 3 of them, excluded the academic-based society. some people are surprises by my participations in quite many clubs or societies. well, i'm trying to balance myself. at least, i dont hold any post, so it wouldn't burden me that much. the hightlight of the month for students' activities is the FSCC nominations. i forget what the FSCC stands for, but it's more like the leadership committees, who will handle and administor other students. some sorts like that. it's like our BPP in faris-la.

210708 ~mid-sem break..and exams~

peace upon you.. my previous post was supposed to tell about my classes, but i was too carried away and that's what you get *chuckle*. my sincere apology comes from my heart since i was more to 'melalut'. our mid-sem break is on 4th to 10th of August, 2008. aina and i will be going back to kelantan by the uia-machang-kb bus, provided by the PERDANA[persatuan anak2 darul naim], at the night of 2nd of August, 9 p.m.. mid-sem break is no alone without the mid-sem exams [aiyak..!!] so far, this what the exams' dates will be. 02/08/2008, Saturday - ENGLISH [reading and grammar] 11/08/2008, Monday - MATHEMATICS I 16/08/2008, Saturday - ARABIC LANGUAGE [chapter 1-13] BIOLOGY I [chapter 1 - origin of life] [chapter 2 - chemical foundation of life] [chapter 3 - ultrastructure and function of cell] so fikah.. chaiyouk2..aja2 fighting..

210708 ~classes~

salam'alayk to those who read.. well, life as an university student[although i'm still doing my foudation in cfs, i'd rather consider myself as one of uni students], can be very tough and stressful at the same time. in this semester, we don't have any assignment to be wooried of, instead, we do have lots of homework[hah??!! homework??!!],also got 2 speaking presentations [group and individual] and also a maths1 project work. anyway, to be frank, it's quite to late to tell all these nonsense stuffs since we'll be having our mid-sem holidays less than 2 weeks from now on. so, if we have mid-sem break, of course we do have our mid-sem exams. waaargh!! it has been pressing on me so hard as i need to score 3.5 if i want to stay in my programme [pharmacy, if some of you don't know yet]. also, we are allowed to change to medicine if we want to. but, until this moment i'm typing this, alhamdulillah, Allah still sets my heart to stand in this programme. well, there are some people still asking me if i love to switch my programme because pharmacy was not my first choice in applying upu before. and AGAIN, i would like to stress that i'm staying in pharmacy programme, no matter what. i believe, that pharmacists[insya-Allah, i'll be the one of them,too] can contribute as much as the doctors, to the people, to our religion and to our nation. wish me the best!!

marriage conflicts

i know, i was way too young to give comments on these. but i'm matured enough to understand what had happened around us.

last weekend, on the sunday noon, i was like the other viewers who loved to entertain ouselves by watching 'melodi'. well, i'm a normal teenager. of course, i'd love to know all the things, happening in our showbiz.

norman hakim kena tangkap basah. i forgot what's it in english. with memey suhaiza, an actress and a model. the week before, they were both denying that they were having affairs. Allah the Almighty. you're caught red-handed. they were in the same business premise when the jakim people caught them. again, nh stood for his so-called innocence. he even said that he was responsible to protect memey's family name, bla..bla... i said, BULLSHIT!!. how about your wife? had she ever crossed your mind for a sec? how about her dignity? her family's name?
abby just cried when the terjah reporter, nas ahmad interviewed for her words.

and the story continued, in this week's episode, where aa filed for her second divorce[they had their first divorce few years back, but then they rujuk to each other bak], which failed, because she had no certain documents [since nh kept all of them].

she confronted her hubby at the gerak khas shhoting location, which was followed by a group of reporters. from a far side [since the reporters gave them some privacy to talk], aa looked like to puke all her anger to her hubby. after a few moments, the reporters joined them. to make things worse, while crying, nh popped out that she had to keep memey and family away from that matter. aa yelled at him by saying that he kept backing up 'that other woman'. nh then walked away [ i don't know, maybe it's too crowded. maybe his mind was crowded. embarrassed maybe, since his wife yelled at him. or stucked because it seemed that no other way, except for a d.i.v.o.r.c.e, again??!]

i felt like to kick his dumb ass. running away wouldn't help a thing.

anyways, yh came, maybe to console, maybe to persuade, maybe to calm aa down.

well, let's hope that it will be settled in peace.

please..don't involve your precious gems of your life..your children..

back again to my college's life

last night was my very first time to travel alone. seriously, alone. i had never been in my life to go somewhere, with me, myself. there would always at least someone to accompany me. for example:
-during my flight to and from kl, i had bro afnan.
-during my flight to and from brisbane, i had a bunch of cool buddies with me.
-during my journey for ytr course, me and fuad.
-during my journey back after the above, i flew with tirah n fuad.
-my journey to college for the first tume, was with my family.
-the other journey(s) from and to college, there would be always people that i'd known.
-all the journey(s) during schooltime, teachers and friends were everywhere with me.

luckily, it wasn't a nightmare. but i had a hard time to sleep because of the seat. my seat was in executive coach, only ten passengers there, compared to 30 at the upper side. the seat was in the front [since i held a ticket with the seat no. of 1]. and i always got distracted, everytime people passed by or when the lights were on.

anyhow, the bus departed from jln hamzah sharp at 9.30pm. once i suddenly woke up, because the bus halted. i thought it was waiting the red traffic light to turn green, but the real story was, there had been an accident. terrible. spent about more than 30 minutes there.

alhamdulillah, i arrived at 5.50am. cikai [who arrived earlier] welcomed me as i hopped from the bus. there were bieyl and norli, waiting us at the seats in putra station. we waited for another person to come, kak. she arrived about 15-20 mins later. luck was by our side again as we got this pakcik who offered to send us, those 5girls [a normal taxi can only carry 4 ppl] to pj, with rm5/person. quite affordable.

we splitted as we arrived at our mahallah. kak was with me and cikai carried the other two to her room. since me and kak were on our cuti, we had our sleep again. yeah, we needed the energy to import the kc-ians' stuffs to ac. i believed that, it would be a hectic job awaited us.

after me and cikai registered ourselves, we had our tour to ac to have a peek inside the rooms that those kc-ians would have to stay until short semester. kak was fortunate enough to get a room for two. while bieyl and norli [both for separated rooms] had to share with another 7 ppl. 'masak..masak..'. however, the wooden lockers were almost damaged by the anai2. then, we went down to have our breakfast. and, we're ready to escort 3 of them.

we transported their stuffs by putting them into the elevator. everything seemed to be smooth at first until it's bieyl's turn to transfer her stuffs down from the third floor. we filled the elevator with her and her friend's stuffs, when the elevator suddenly stucked. it closed, but it didn't go down to the ground floor where the others were waiting. we had the situation where the door kept opened and closed for several times, until one time, bieyl went out with some of the stuffs, thinking that the elevator might be overloaded. then, the elevator went up to the forth floor and back to the third floor. this time, the door was merely opened. me and bieyl's friend kept shouting at bieyl to help us to open the door. but it was all in vain. we pushed the emergency button, but it didn't function. panick started to arise in me, but i tried to control myself.bieyl ran down to the ground floor and got some help. fortunately, the door opened by itself after a few trials. we held the door and moved their things out, which meant that we had to transport those thing using the staircases. it was quite lethargic, but at least, we're not stranded in the elevator anymore. the lorry came. we moved the things to the back side of the lorry, with norli there, awaited for the stuffs. norli went to ac with the lorry, while me and the others, struggled ourselves very hard to bring the trolley luggages on the hill-y road. again, we was fortunate enough that madam sa'yah [kc's principal] allowed us to have some of the luggages in her car. fuuh. my shirt was all wet with sweats.

as we arrived in ac, this time will be a lot harder because we had to get all the stairs to the upstairs. norli was in the ground floor, bieyl's in the second floor and kak's on the third. we were all gasping for the air as we finished putting their things in their rooms. eventhough it used all my energy, i enjoyed myself actually. they did appreciate us [me and cikai], which made me to forget all my tiredness. together, after getting ourselves some drinks, we made our moves to the first floor of kc, to reward ourselves by watching melodi. fun, right?!

well,
ONE FOR ALL, ALL FOR ONE.
DIVIDED WE FALL, UNITED WE STAND.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

goim back..

i'm goim back tonyte. at 9.30pm. by mutiara bus. hope i can survive, since my last ride to my hometown was not so smooth. i felt dizzy and the journey nauseated me so much.
so, no more:
-tv
-korean dramas
-korean music
-korean music videos
-korean thingie
-sleeping like a log
-sleeping late at night [when i'm actually sleeping at 3 in the morning]
-playing laptop games
-hbo+cinemax+starmovies movies
-hanging around with my baby, comey da one and only
-my bantal bushyuks
-pancakes
-watermelon juice+milk

urghh..

s.e.l.a.m.a.t p.a.g.i c.i.n.t.a <3

SELAMAT PAGI CINTA
Julia (Fazura) and Ilham (Pierre) experience a turn in their relationship when Ilham discovers that he suffers from a terminal disease but he decides to hide it from Julia anyway. She begins to doubt his fidelity when he secretly goes out often, when in fact he's undergoing treatment. Meanwhile, Azam (Que Haidar) and Suci (Sharifah Amani) are another couple with problems. Suci comes to believe that they are not right for each other as Azam frequently breaks his promises – but there is more than meets the eye. (Source: Cinema Online)

Release Date
20 November 2008
Language
Malay
Classification
U
Running Time
N/A
Director
Nurliana Samsudin
Cast
Nur Fazura Sharifuddin, Pierre Andre, Que Haidar, Sharifah Amani.


p/s: the director was pierre's ex-'awek', okay?! this one triggers my heart because of its touching trailer i saw last few days. hope it's not going to disappoint me again [since pierre is the scriptwriter, and also because 'i'm not single' was so unsatisfying], who knows, with yana directed this, it'll be so much better. hoping for no more nonsense dialogues, just like in 'i'm not single'. the storyline was ridiculous, which i hated it so much. it could be better. so, let's just wait and watch the new one.

w.a.y.a.n.g

WAYANG
Master puppeteer Awang Lah becomes an uneasy teacher to Melor and the blind orphan Awi. All grown up, Awi's innovative ways of telling the tales of Ramayana are well received by his audience but not by Awang who believes that the traditional wayang kulit performance is sacred. Love begins to bloom between the Awi and Melor but Jusoh, who has an eye for Melor, attempt to break them apart. Circumstances cause Awang to collapse during a wayang kulit performance. Will Awi and Melor be able to carry on the traditions of wayang kulit and find happiness at the same time?. (Source: Cinema Online)


Release Date
13 November 2008
Language
Malay
Classification
U
Running Time
1 hour 50 minutes
Director
Hatta Azad Khan
Cast
Eman Manan, Mas Muharni, Zulhuzaimy Marzuki.


p/s: can't wait to watch this one. people say that it's the best masterpiece, right from our talented director.

more n more

my latest addiction is not limited to those below only, there are more, actually. currently, i'm so much addicted to anything that relates to korean thingie. from music to dramas, actors to singers to comedians. anything korean, i'd definitely love them. so much in L.O.V.E. .
also, not forgetting our hero remaja, kamal adli. owh, you can never imaginehow gorgeous he is. with his smile. his look. ahhh.. in <3>

Monday, November 3, 2008

my latest addiction

solbi




yu geon